me when sid found out his dad was dead:
Today, while in a putrid orange jacket, I bid band concerts farewell. Percussion, you have treated me so well.
HEY GUYS I’ve been at a charity event since around 1:15 and I thought it was going to suck but it wasn’t too bad because the bands were good and yay.
AND ALSO THERE WERE RAFFLE BASKETS. And my family won two. After a family meeting and distribution of the things, I have acquired a bag, sleep shirt, AND A NEW FLAT IRON AND A UKULELE.
I went shopping for graduation dresses today yay. I got both (because they were both pretty cheap) and I’m leaning towards the first but the second is really bright so I dunno. I have time to choose.
Also wow I am so unbelievably pale.
a couple of nights ago, at around 10, i looked really good but it was late and had no one to share it with. so, the only foreseeable action was to camerawhore. and now i’m sharing that.
Adios muchachos. I’m off to get inducted into the National Junior Honor Society (ooh how exciting -____-).
This outfit was chosen by popular demand. And by that, I mean 24/24 of the people who replied said this outfit looked the best.
Your honorary Nerd-with-a-dress is headed to her first wedding ever. So, I shall not be on tonight. Have a lovely evening and I may or may not see you tomorrow (I’m going back to NY).
Put em together and what have you got? pssst, the answer is camerawhoring.
Thanks to my posting of a screenshot of arguably one of the best moments on the internet, I’ve gained a lot of followers and that is a rare occurrence for me so today is a nice day. I feel the need to introduce you to the giantsquidofawesome team behind the computer…
So, lovely people, welcome to my brain, and most importantly, my blog.
“We don’t realize that, somewhere within us all, there does exist a supreme self who is eternally at peace.” - Elizabeth Gilbert
Anyone who has read a single one of my personal posts knows this: I greatly dislike myself. That is no secret. I could - and I believe I have - sit down and point out every one of my flaws. But, though I seldom think about them, I have just as many good qualities as I have poor ones. And you know what? I’m going to sit here and type them all up, regardless of how narcissistic this comes across.
Grades on a paper only represent so much, but I do pretty darn well in school. Most of the time, I feel pretty good in a classroom because I’m talented at the topic at hand. That’s also how I feel during a band concert. I’m a really good percussionist. On stage, as well, I feel invincible. Though I’m no longer on a team, swimming is still a specialty of mine. I swim a mean butterfly, not to mention my backstroke. You know what, also? I’m a great writer. I have the world to learn when it comes to various types of writing, but for my age, my talent is well developed.
As a person, I like to pride myself with the fact that I’m empathetic, observant and witty. I suppose the fact that I’m a creator of characters myself has made me an excellent empathizer. I see someone in emotional pain and I feel the same exact pain. It’s true that I don’t know how to respond to that, but the fact that I notice and feel at all is nice. I’m very alert and notice things about people, which helps me understand people’s motives and lets me relate to people. And I suppose I’m sometimes funny in a very cynical and sarcastic way.
So, yes, I am flawed. Out of this entire post, I did not say a single quality that pertains to actual interaction with other people, which are arguably the most important traits. I’m growing. I’m trying to fix some of my imperfections. I have potential. I’ll love myself. I will.
Thank you to everyone who participated in this year’s Spread The Love Event! Please, remember to stay optimistic even when you seem to be consumed with darkness. There is always a glimmer of light. Promise me you’ll find it, alright?
